An update
Sorry I've been MIA since a couple weeks ago. So I went to go see the cardiologist and had my stress test done. The same thing that had been happening to me in practice, happened during the test so that at least let me think that they might be able to find out what it was... cuz had nothing happened it probably wouldnt have been productive. So they called me back a couple days later and said that nothing really abnormal came back on my EKG and their grand recommendation was to "breathe deeper when running"................ yeah... I was like thanks for that, I'm pretty sure I could have figured that out on my own. And I had a feeling what I was afraid was gonna happen did happen. I could tell when I was talking to the doctor that he felt nothing was wrong with me, before even asking me the few questions about what I experience (and half listening at that) he was already ready to chalk it up to caffine (which I dont drink) or stress (which I'm not really) or other end of semester thing. So I wasnt too surprised that he found nothing in the test, I really was doubtful of how closely he looked at it. He basically patted me on my head and sent me on my way to keep running.
So I have tried over the past couple of weeks to do workouts and had the same things happen. I couldnt make it through any of my longer repeats (1200's) and was getting beyond frustrated and... just sad really. I took a few days off to just distance myself from things. Enough to say things havent really gottan better, though the tighness in my chest has lessened since I have cut back my running or the intensity of it anyways. The hardest thing I've done since I last wrote (besides attempting workouts) is a progressive run done on the treadmill this week. I had to stop 4 minutes short because as I was increasing the speed I was running, that same lightheaded disoriented feeling increased at well.
I was thinking that my frustration had reached its limits and I had nowhere new to turn to figure out what is going on, but then I got a call that has renewed some hope for a solution. My cardiologist report was returned to our university health center, but the doctor that had referred me was out of town and my file got sent to this doctor I've never seen before. He looked over all my files as well as the cardiologists one and ended up callin the cardiologist and they talked for about an hour. He saw some things that made him have some questions and kinda laughed at their recommendation to me as well to breathe better. I could tell he was reluctant to tell me things over the phone, but one thing i got out of him was that my blood pressure didnt rise almost at all during the whole stress test past the initial rise at the veeeerrrry beginning. So he said he has some ideas what could be going on but wants to talk to me in person. So I'm going to talk to him tomorrow and hope for the best.
The bad, crushing news is that this season is pretty much done for me right now. At this point in the year (especially with my times so far this year) I couldnt afford to have basically 3+ weeks without hard training. So as far as competing goes I'm done for the year and I dont know if I'll step back onto the track for competitive reasons again. I'm almost in tears writing this right now but I dont know how much more my body can take... despite what my heart wants. One of my friends put it best "My heart loves running, but my body wont let me"
I'll be sure to keep you guys updated as to what is going on, but right now... I just need to step back
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AWWWWWWW!!!!! NO, I'm so sorry to hear that. I'll keep you in my prayers
Stay strong
8:53 PM, May 25, 2008
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Im really sorry to hear that. I hope you find a deep source of motivation to keep you running. I've had feelings like that many times. My experiences showed that my dissapointing seasons led to my best seasons later. I hate to say this, but sometimes I hate when doctors don't take runners serious. You should check your iron and take your vitamins. Hope the best for you.
Thanks...
9:28 PM, May 25, 2008
.. Posted by UnrTrack
To both of you guys. And believe me I've stayed strong for so long, stuff like this has been going on for over 6 years now, and I keep tellin myself that next year will be the year ya know? And it just never is... But like I said, I think I just might need to step back for a little before deciding whether or not to keep going.
And I did have a blood work-up done, iron and all that are good to go haha. Sad to say though that you're right about doctors not takin us serious, especially since we're "so young and healthy" and what not...Anyways, thanks again for the support! I'll always take all that I can get :)
Edited by UnrTrack on May 26, 2008 at 12:30 AM
My heart loves running but my body won't let me
12:31 AM, May 26, 2008
.. Posted by brooklynrunz
I can definately relate to how you feel. I, too, am passionate about running...but my body doesn't follow. Know that God opens a door no man can close. Trust that God does not predicate your destiny on one thing/path/gift. What He has for you is for you, and it will come in due time. I will pray that all is well with your heart (that was God right there...I hate it when doctors want to dismiss me and ignore what I have to say! So, I'm glad you got a second opinion ;)
I'm praying for you!
5:27 PM, May 26, 2008
.. Posted by missbri
My heart truly goes out to you because I feel like I can empathize on some level and the only reason I have some light left at the end of my tunnel this year is because fitness for the long jump is far different from fitness for the 800. you should have done a field event! ;)
in all seriousness though, stepping back is the right decision because it is so easy to become overwhelmed that we can miss God's direction. the last however many years have had a purpose, injuries and all. and whatever is next has a purpose as well. it is a hard thing when our heart and mind are not in alignment with what our bodies allow us to do. i wish you the best and stay strong!
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Miss.Bri just sum it up for ya. God bless and try to stay positive.
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