Blogs : Deserea Brown

Dreams can be reality...If you wake up

Im writing this for self cleansing....fyi!

How can one have dreams as big as mine and do as little as i do to make them come true, now i have been blessed with alot of natural talents and a coach who is more than equiped to bring it out of me, and actually wants to, not all athlets have that luxury to have someone who is patient enough to develop them..

So ive been thinking about my weaknesses because something is clearly holding me back, i think im mentally not where i need to be physically i try hard but i lose mental battles with myself..for example i go home for break and thought i did everything right i ran miles, hurdles, sprints, lactic acid workouts and lifted weights sometimes i did 2 a day practices, so i felt that i was getting more disciplined since i was able to do that away from my coach, then i get back and realize that working out on your own is still not the same as working with the team i basically got ran off the track a couple practices IN A ROW! wow! not something im used to and i took it pretty hard i began to doubt my abilities immediately, im glad it happened though because it showed me what i need to work on in order to be successful.

I have it set in my goals this year to be a national champion in 2 individual events and qualify for the summer olympic trials and after reading a couple other blogs i see that dream is being shared by athletes all over the world. So how do i turn this dream into a reality? not by doubt and disbelief but by hard work and diligience in everything i do pertaining to my goal. I have allowed myself to except mediocre intervals and lifting sessions, now im bright i no that my dreams will stay just that; dreams if i dont wake up.

I have some changing to do, i have to give up the luxury of falling behind when i get tired and not pushing through the hard times, i have to give up bad eating habits, i have to devote more time to quality sleep and not making up for all nighters by sleeping through the day, i have to push through lifting sessions, i have to mentally prevail and the physical will come.

I start my season off at mizzou this friday with the 60 hurdles 400m 200 and the 4x400...i couldnt be more excited actually because i get to test what ive learned and worked on this fall, i am focused on running with strategy and intelligience this season once i get that times will come im sure..

I honestly dont no what possessed me to write this blog but it seemed like i had some things on my chest or maybe im ready to wake up....

WOW..

2:08 PM, January 9, 2008 .. Posted by brian84

I have those same feelings a lot. Ive been placed in a situation with a great coach and teammates and we plan to do big things this year.

Its just a bit tough not to doubt yourself when you have days like you described...I doubt myself allllll the time,even after I know Ive put in the work.This year is a perfect example.Everything is avaliable to me and I still think Im missing something.Im missing my mental prep. So im just going to pray harder than ever and hope that when it comes time to roll, I will have the strength to overcome my jitters.

You got the plan and all you gotta do is walk that road now.. Good luck at Mizzou! I am in that area and im sure our schools will have some battles!! I will look for you!!

good luck!

4:22 PM, January 9, 2008 .. Posted by missbri

I have totally been where you are at...a collegiate athlete wanting to go from good to great. For me, it finally clicked that I really could be that good and that the people around me who believed in me and thought I could accomplish all these things weren't crazy. Once I adopted that mindset I was a whole different athlete.

I can tell your head is in the right place. You know what it takes and that's a good thing. Sometimes doubt in our ability is a constant battle but always try to squash it as soon as possible. There will always be bad days and bad practices but don't let it define you or limit you...that's where you get into trouble!